Proposal-Disposal

I don’t know what compelled me
Into decisions of my own
The outcomes of which held me
Captivated all alone

        I’d only planned for the future
        Drawing on my imagination
        Not knowing I was a creature
        Still under education

My plans that now lay slain
By fate and beaten dead
Somehow teach to plan again
To not to plan ahead

        Whatever you badly desire
        You might not ever get
        But try until you tire
        And let Him settle the debt

I don’t know why people pray
Probably prayers are heard
But there’s always a second way
Of them being answered

        I thought I would be happier
        When I wished to have no wish
        My wishes fled for failure’s fear
        I wish to have a wish…